It’s been a while, hasn’t it? Well a lot happened while I was gone from writing blogs. But I’ll try to make the story short.
I don’t remember where I left off from my last blog, and I don’t care to reread it to find out. I’ll just start over. I know that I talked about a crush of mine a lot in the old blogs. Well I still have that same crush. He goes by the name Dreamboy now. Speaking of that name, I realized something about it that was very similar to Dreamboy’s actual name. But I’m not going to say what because then that might tell who it is. But let me get back to what I was saying before. I finally told him that I had a crush on him. Well, I couldn’t do it so I made my friend do it. Actually, she made herself do it because I wouldn’t and she knew I was never going to. I was planning on telling him myself, but my confidence came crashing down, so I couldn’t bring myself to do it. It all happened in the beginning of June. I didn’t want to be there when she told him, so I did the most awkward thing I have ever done. I just ran away up a hill and laid down and just closed my eyes. I know, it doesn’t sound so bad, but the more I replay it in my mind the worse and worse it gets. And to just add onto the embarrassment, I threw my shoes when my friend came up to me to tell me what he said. Both of them. I’m surprised they didn’t hit him. I don’t know why I threw them, it just happened. I wish it didn’t, but it did. I just don’t know when to stop embarrassing myself.
But the news was pretty good. It was a lot better than I expected. I thought it was going to be, “eww. Why does she have a crush on me? I still have a crush on someone else. And Ulainna is my best friend, I don’t want to ruin that.” But it was more along the lines of, “I know she has a crush on me. And she has crossed my mind.” That’s not exactly what she told me he said but it’s close enough. Afterwards we just hung out. And of course I played some music from a playlist that my friends and I made for that day. I added a lot of songs hinting towards my crush, but I don’t think he payed any attention to them. But I still gave him looks as the songs played while he scrolled on his phone. Then an hour or two passed and my mom picked me up. You could say that I had a good night.
Now cut to the beginning of July while I was at the beach with the friend that told Dreamboy that I liked him. He told me that he actually liked me too. Which I thought was a joke at first, but I guess it wasn’t. I didn’t fully know it until like 2 days after he told me. And I had to text him to make sure. And he was sure. I didn’t know what to do. But I was really freaking happy. I still don’t know what is going to come from this. But I still have a crush on him, duh. I have for the longest time, and just never realized it until after I moved.
But we are still as close as ever. But I would like to become a little closer. I just want to have a real personal conversation with him in person. I love having deep conversations with my friends, I think it brings us closer because I know more about them and they know more about me. And I just want to know more about Dreamboy. Like, really bad. I also just want to hangout. We haven’t done that in the longest time. I still find it so crazy that he actually likes me back. I would have never thought it would happen, but I guess it did.
Well that was a catch up on Dreamboy, let me find another topic in my life to talk about. Ahh, blogs.
I think I am going to reread the rest of my blogs now that I think about it. I am scared that I put something really embarrassing in them. Actually, I know I did, but I just want to see how bad it is. I know that my family is going to find them any day now and make fun of me. Hopefully I’ll be ready. But I think I am going to continue making blogs for now. There is something about them that gives me a little relief. Maybe I finally found something that I enjoy doing and that I want to stick with. I have been struggling recently to find something, but I may have just found it.
One last thing I want to address. I feel bad for the girl that Dreamboy had a crush on before he got a crush on me. She really missed out on a one in a lifetime opportunity. A GREAT opportunity if you ask me. She’s really missing out on the sweetest human in this earth. But he isn’t even just sweet. He’s so much more. Ew, why am I so boy crazy. I need to tone it down a notch. Yikes.
I guess that is all for my update on my life since I last spoke to you. Actually, it was basically just an update on Dreamboy. I hope the chat with you again sometime soon.
xx ulainna
P.S. I took away blogs 2,3, and 4 for you to see because I read over them and they were just too embarrassing. So if you are confused about what was happening in this blog, I understand why. But in the other blogs I basically just talked about wasps stinging me and Dreamboy, no surprise there. Maybe I’ll let you guys see them in the future. I don’t know. And I also have a blog typed up in my notes that I never published because I forgot to. I’ll read over it and see if I’ll publish it.
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