Entry Number Five

     Hello. No, that's more bland than my actual blogs. I know, it has been 2 or so months since my last blog. I can explain myself! Well... it isn't going to be a good one. But let me get right to the main reason.
     I have been pretty busy. I know, you might be thinking about how I am probably not busy and I am just over exaggerating because I am an 8th grade girl. Well, you are completely correct about that statement. Yeah, I am busy, but there have been plenty of times where I was free but I decide to do something that I gain nothing from. I believe that I must gain something from typing up these stupid blogs. It definitely isn't the amount of people that read them because no one actually reads these. I am typing these things for no one, or at least I hope I am. I sort of regret a lot of the things I put in these. I skimmed over some of my last ones and they are pretty cringy. So I am very sorry about that. And I am also sorry about this. Because I am almost positive that this is going to be exactly like the others. I am getting a strong feeling about that. But let me fill you in with what has happened over the last decade since I have written to you.
     My new life at my new school has just begun. I have a friend group that I love so freaking much and they make me so happy. Let me talk about that. When I first met these two girls that asked me to sit with them, I was scared. I didn't know if they were going to be little brats, or if they were going to be some sort of crack addicts. You can never tell with a 13 year old these days. But the first month or so that I sat with them at lunch was very slow. Don't get me wrong, I was very thankful that they adopted me and all, but I was just not happy. I was just, how so I put this... meh. I was just spending my lunches listening to them talk to each other. But I did not want to butt in on their conversations because these girls are best friends. Like, the best kind. And I know how it feels when a newbie tries to join your two person party. I have the same kind of friendship with one of my best friends. Like if she has a sleepover with someone other than me, I picture me strangling the person she is having a sleepover with. But it is not really like that anymore. Because we have the same friend groups, which is a blessing. But back to the girls at my new school. They were best friends and so I didn't want to spoil that for them. So I just ended up sitting in silence nibbling on my lunch. Then came along another one of their friends. Now I was scared to meet this person. I didn't know if they would be nice to me or not. But he sat with us a little and I ended up liking lunch a lot more. Then he sat with us everyday and it got really fun. He sometimes has fights with lunchboxes. The best kind. They are very sassy. Things got a lot better. And I enjoyed lunches a lot more because when the two girls would talk to each other I could just turn over and talk to the other guy. THEN came along a new comer. Now, at first I didn't know how to feel about him sitting with us. He had moved to my new school only a month after me. So we were already the new kids. He was in my Latin class, but he was extremely silent. I didn't think that he liked me at all. But one day he was listening on the conversation that I was having with some other girls, and I knew this because he just jumped in like a creep. I'm joking, don't come for me. But after they very little words that we said to each other, and the vine references, we didn't exchange any other words for a while. Until he sat with us at lunch. The first day was a little rough because he was our new recruit. We basically made him feel like he was being questioned by the government. Which is what I am always going for.
     We instantly clicked after that. We found out that we were actually twins in our past lives because there is just too many things that we have in common, and it is becoming very confusing. We are finding new things that we both share everyday. Literally. But he is my Latin buddy and we both know nothing about Latin. So we are failing together. He keeps insulting my translations though, but I don't blame him. They are absolute trash. But he is actually being transferred into my English class, which is actually extremely exciting. I cannot wait. And I am going to help him stalk his crush because that is what best friends are for.
     Speaking of crushes, I don't have any. Or at least I don't think I have any. No, I don't. I got over my first one, the one from my old school. We are good friends, so I just had to think about being just friends and it actually worked. We are still good friends. And it is going to stay that way. Now that I think about it, what is the definition of crush. Because I don't know how I am feeling. I know, I really need to make up my mind. But there is just so many guys at my school and they are all new to me and I feel like I have a crush on like half of them. But I don't. They are all jerks. I just think that they are cute, but I would never date them. I don't think that I would date any one from my school. Now that I think about it, I actually wouldn't date anyone from my school. Well maybe one, but not now. Maybe in high school, but right now I just need to focus on myself. No one else should be getting in my way of that. But if this one guy does ask my to the formal that is going on in June then I would for sure say yes. But not like in crush way. Like friends. He is sweet, which is the only reason I would say yes. It is final, I don't have a crush on anyone. WhooHoo! I actually haven't for like a month because I finally realized the friendship crush would never happen and this was about a month ago. I don't have a crush, and I am happy about that. I can now look at this guy in peace. But I don't really look at him. I only look at him to check to see if he is looking at me, but the outcome of him actually looking at me only happened like twice. I just find him to be sweet, and it always helps that he is a little cute too. I am getting confused as to what the heck I am talking about, my wording things sucks. Oh my gosh, why the heck am I putting this out on the internet for everyone to see. Well it is only middle school, how bad can it be? I take that back, it can be really bad. I can be publicly humiliated in front of everyone. But I don't even have an actual crush. I am not even going to be thinking about him. I must focus on my friend's crush, which is far more important than my feelings. I am going to make them a couple whether my friend's crush likes it or not.
 I probably made a lot of people mad because I talked about them a lot. But I didn't mean to say anything mean, and I am extremely happy with all of my friends. And you all know who you are. I am very grateful to have people like you in my life, even if I am temporarily "grounded" from you guys... I'll get to that story in another blog. If I even remember about this account. You should see another blog posted by me in about 3 years. That is all for this rant blog, goodbye to the very, very, VERY few people that are actually reading this. Please don't bully me.


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